Wow. So much to do to prepare for India! Only about 2 months to get all my funds, vaccines, and equipment! Craziness!
I started this blog months ago when the Lord started me on this journey, and now it’s become real. I’ve prayed to the Lord about this trip. For months. I’ve only shared it with a handful of people and not in a way that was set. It was always, “I’m looking into going to India next year…”
Now. I’ve signed up. Prayed. Gone through an interview. Prayed. Prepared about one hundred support letters in the last week. Prayed. But have kept this all to myself for the most part. I think a lot of has been because I had no idea where the Lord was really leading me with this. I had an inkling, but I had my own plans and my own aspirations and my own comforts. I was so consumed with me, me, me and making sure that everything would fall into place to ensure that I would go. But now for the last month I’ve been preparing to leave. For September. Now, I only have about three weeks to get 75% of all my funds. 75 percent. That’s a lot of money. 100% by August 19th. That’s less than two months. And have to be ready to leave by the end of August.
But the Lord has been showing how money is not a hinderance. Money is the least of my worries. The Lord has provided for me my whole life, even before I knew Him. The Lord has sustained me and kept providing, especially during this last four years at school when I thought I would never make it. Every year it’s been, “I’ll be back Lord willing…” and it was the Lord’s will for me to go to Master’s because He provided, when I had no idea when I was going to make it through month after month. And now that I’ve graduated that hasn’t changed, and in fact that will never change. The Lord will have to be the one to continually provide. And the truth is, I was planning on going to India later because I thought it was going to be easier. I thought I would have more time to raise funds, and that may be the case, but the Lord calls for me to completely trust in Him. To completely trust that He will provide.
I am reminded of Proverbs 16:9 that says,
In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps
I have been planning. In my heart. For months. But the Lord is the one that determines my steps. The Lord is the one that makes my plan reality and makes the way He wants. He determines my steps and I’m just supposed to follow and complete trust that He has all figured out.
So be in prayer for me. That I would grow in trusting the Lord more and more everyday. Because He’ll be the one to provide the funds, the vaccines, the cameras, the glasses, the clothes, the shoes…all of it. Because right now all I have is me and a willing heart to be used by Him to the max.